Saturday, September 5, 2009

trying to pick up the pieces.

today was a little easier then yesterday. my father, my best friend, my hero... loved my blog.
mainly because most of it was about him, but also because he knew it was my place to be creative. i am continuing on because he would want me to. i miss him more than words can say. today is a new day.



i seem to be falling apart.
my attention span
can be measured in seconds.
my patience in minutes.
i cry at the drop of a hat.
feelings of anxiety and restlessness
are my constant companions.
rainy days seem extra dreary.
sunny days seem an outrage.
other people's pain and
frustrations seem insignificant.
laughing, happy people seem
out of place in this world.
it has become routine to
feel half crazy.
i am normal i am told.
i am a newly grieving person.

2 comments:

Natalie Filer said...

I love you Jen!!

Anonymous said...

The sunshine of a new day
Shines upon my face
I don't know where to begin
I don't know how it came to this
If things don't change maybe I'll
Be the one that you can't find
I've tried so many times
Tried to get it right
Just so our worlds won't
Collide like two stars in the sky
Its time we both decide
To leave this all behind
When the sun goes down
The future's looking bright
When all is said and done
And tomorrow has begun
Remember today is now yesterday
Can we find a way find a way to let it go
When tomorrow comes
Today will be a brand new day
Can we let it go

The sunshine of a new day
Shines upon my face
Reminding me of mistakes
Memories I must erase
Here's one more chance for me
To throw them all away
Today's a brand new start
We made this way too hard
We both need something like
Amnesia of the heart
We stand here face to face
See I won't look away
If you just hold my hand
We'll make it through the day
When all is said and done
And tomorrow has begun
Remember today is now yesterday
Can we find a way find a way to let it go
When tomorrow comes
Today will be a brand new day
Can we let it go